After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t mean security.
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises …
After a while you learn…
That even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
Fifteen Ways to Stay Alive by Daphne Gottlieb
you can go ahead and send that cuddle buddy along right about now.
100% done with people suddenly remembering that I exist and am wanted in their life.
1000% done with being forgiving enough to just suck it up and pretend that nothing’s wrong
10000% done with not being able to be a bitch to the people I care about.
I feel like my life is in shambles right now. Tattered bits laying around on the floor where the cat subsequently bats them around like playthings. I don’t have any direction; the direction I thought I had is proving difficult. The other direction hasn’t spoken to me in 3 days.